i feel like a bad mother to my newborn

And so it goes. Then it got better. How will I, let alone everyone else, understand if I get PPD? My son was premature and spent his first 6 weeks of life in the hospital. I hadn’t stopped counting my hours of sleep for weeks and weeks and suddenly they seemed to slip through my fingers, after all we’d been through. I don’t know if I’ll love it or just merely try to survive it – thank you so much for sharing this. (She didn’t sleep through the night consistently until 13 months and has begun waking at night again lately to use the potty. I’m 6.5 months pregnant with my first, and I’m already struggling with anxiety and prepartum depression. This article describes exactly how I feel. When it was my turn, I said, “Yeah, my baby is great, it’s me that’s having the identity crisis.” Well, being honest helped everyone really open up to talking about what they truly were going through. I feel terrible admitting this, but there was a point where I questioned why we even decided to have a baby. With the last few I cuddled as much as I could because I knew they’d be on the move all too soon. What a great way to say to those new moms that we’ve been there and it’s okay to have those feelings. I thought something was wrong with me. , Wonderfully written letter! Yes, I knew it would be hard but I didn’t bond with her right away and I felt HORRIBLE. People kept asking me when I was pregnant with my second if I was SO excited for him to be born? . Instead, I found myself pining for my life before the baby. Don’t they know how often I run out of eggs at home? The first 8 weeks were some of the worst of my life. And our babies and children will make the most of what they have. My first cried every night until she fell asleep and my second wanted to nurse for four hours before midnight every night. But I know that other moms have made it through and it will be ok either way. • Accounts Receivable Loans Your kid cries for what seems like an eternity. My son is 3 1/2 months and I really thought I was the only one that felt every word you wrote in this letter. I had to sleep in another room so my husband could at least get some rest since there was nothing he could do to help. How refreshing it was to realise that it was just a sort of illness and no reflection on me or my relationship with my baby boy. Bored when he’s asleep and in over my head when he’s not. . I do enjoy the early days, at least I have in the past. I just hope he sleeps better than his sister did. My doctors in the end told me I was better to formula feed then to continue to punish myself the way I was. Whatever the case I feel guilty as hell. I must say that I had a lot of “baby” experience before I had my first, it didn’t seem so hard then. My little one is 3 now and I still have days when I think my life is over. I was first expecting the rush of love after the delivery but labour was so bad (one of the horror stories you would hear while pregnant) I only felt pain and humiliation (another horrid story). I ended up at my doctors, and from there I got the help I needed. People kept asking me, “Don’t you just love being a Mom?” etc. I’ll be linking this post to my friends who are expecting, so thanks! To be honest, I don’t remember a lot, but I do remember her being about 2.5 months old and telling my husband that I loved him, and wanted to stay with him, but that I thought we had made a mistake keeping the baby. Loved this post and reading everyone’s responses. I think something that really helped me, though, is the huge cocoon of support I enjoyed that first year in particular and to an extent, since then. I was SO overwhelmed. God has shown me a lot through these experiences! I’ve heard it all at this point. Learn more about. Her baby cooed while my babies cried. I wish someone had warned me how difficult being a mom would be. I could not understand why I was so unhappy once my daughter was here. now, on the other hand, i am not wild about pregnancy and i don’t get the giddy feeling that many speak of even with the kicks… they kinda hurt. We can identify with that. I too had a very similar experience with my first. Anyway…then, 6 months into our new life as a family, things began to change and I began to bond with him, truly. I am a wreck. http://www.dazeddad.com/2012/02/05/i-have-a-hard-time-liking-my-son-at-night/. You teach and protect them. But you need to have support right now and you need to rest and just take things one day at a time. I know, you are the worst. Oh, what a good “one liner” to say to new moms! My sister in law is also pregnant and I’m also starting to get this feeling that people including family will judge my baby and compare them to their cousins. 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